Some undated time ago I wrote down a quote that I recently rediscovered: “The end of a good performance makes me lonely and I let go slowly just as I linger over the end of a good book. It’s always like losing friends.” (Lee Uttmark)
This may sound morose, but as the guys in Mosaique will tell you, when it hits me that our gig is over, I usually cry out in pain. I really hate it. I could play/sing with these guys and the wonderful friends at Arrivederci for hours and hours, and 3 sets go by far too quickly. I already struggle with being “present,” and when I’m on a high from the (forgive me for the buzz word) synergy created by all the connections in that space, I’m feel transported above and beyond and as wonderful as that feels, it causes a time warp. Time truly flies when we’re having that much fun.
So I can relate to the loneliness Uttmark described: I linger with the band and our friends, I begin planning the next one, and I lament that it’s four or six or eight weeks away and not tomorrow.
All of that to say, these exchanges of music and connection and love and energy are transforming, transporting, and profoundly fulfilling. Those of you who participate in this exchange help make true that the whole is much, much greater than the sum of the parts.
Now looking at this year ending, it’s another end that can create loneliness, though I know many are glad to see it go and a new year begin (as uncertain as it may seem). What I know for sure is that as I encounter other humans and, even for a moment of eye contact or a friendly hello, exchange the energy and gift of living, the loneliness dissipates and I am filled again by the joy of connection.
With that in mind, I am happy to say that we have spring 2017 gigs scheduled – check them out on our “shows” page and please come join in the fun, as quickly as it may pass! We’ll make the most of our moments together.